Nancy Neithercut - A sigh of love

 

The idea of 'happiness' or 'love'
was beginning to seem
like a dream
that would never ever come,
and yet my desire for love
pierced me deeply
and ripped me  
shredded me
and emptied my dreams
of love and magic and time
until there  was nothing left,
not even a skeleton’s dance

Awakening is not
a walk in the park.
I kept looking and looking
for what could  
never ever be found …
a better moment...
another moment...
all my dreams of  what life
or love should be like
started to crumble.
It just kept smacking me
in the face
… over and over and over again,
that this is it,
whatever it looked like,
I had no control over thoughts
feelings
sensations...
of life itself.

I realized that all perception
no matter what it looks or feels like
happens all by itself...
and that all  perception
and its inseparable recognition
arises equally and evenly
without  doing a thing...
simply 'out of the blue'
thoughts
sensations
feelings
arise
and spontaneously,
without any effort or non effort
there is a recognition of them,  
and it dawned
hitting me like a freight train,
that I had never been separate
from  what's going on.

In the end there was
not even nothing left.
Not even  emptiness...  
and there was not even
a me to be empty.  
And a sigh of love rushed in.
Caressed me
found me,
animating my
empty shadow
dancing
in the dark
in the wake
of loves demise…

 

 

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St Therese of Lisieux - Joy

 

"I learned from experience that joy does not reside
in the things about us,
- but in the very depths of the soul,
That one can have it in the gloom of a dungeon,
- as well as in the palace of a king."

 

 Who is St Therese?

 

 

Kavi Jezzie Hockaday - Un-moor your boat

 

You have moored your boat
On the safe part of the river
And, for a time, it has been fine

Now there is a longing to know
What lies further down stream
A thirst for adventure
And a deep desire for the ocean

But you have been moored for a long time
And there is fear of the unknown
What if there are rapids
Or even a huge waterfall
What if you should capsize and drown
What huge discomfort this brings up

Maybe it is better to stay moored up in the safety
Even though it no longer brings any juice to life
And the longing, the thirst, the desire, remains
And seems to grow every day

Oh what a conundrum, a puzzle, a mystery…

Friend, cast off the ropes and throw them upon the shore
You won’t be needing them again
Un-moor your boat like the warrior you are
Deep in your heart
Set sail, face the river, surrender and surf
Meet what comes as it comes
Be done with your fearful imagination
Live in this day, here, now
You have more capacity than you know
But you cannot discover it
Until you un-moor and set sail.

 

 

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