I've been revisiting the view that life is a story being lived
by Life ItSelf; That "I" am being lived; that we are the living
story of Life.
Life lives the story of "me" that I've identified with all these
years, and believed, for a while at least, that "I" needed to be
"enlightened" - and have once again returned to the sense
that "I" am simply living. Just Being.
In this there is an internal "letting go" - or "giving up" - or
some would say "surrender"... And as a wise friend explained:
"In that, an ancient tension and stress is released. And in the
deepest instance of 'giving up', even the somatic aspect of our
being feels a tremendous relief, and a Serene Emptiness where
a contraction had formerly been felt; as much in our physical
body as in our subtle energetic nature. Struggle ceases, no longer
driven by the engine of dissatisfaction with 'what is', with 'how
we are.' No longer driven by the engine of self-judgment and
self-qualification, by the desire to be better or worthy, or
finally 'understanding', or the desire for
'enlightenment.'"
~
There is only the immediacy of the current experience -
just living that experience, whatever that experience is,
whether it is one of joy, or sorrow and grief, however it
unfolds, without the sense of a "self" striving for something
"better", or to do anything to improve it, or to create
strategies to become "enlightened;" the struggle of the "self."
Everything is allowed...
"Enlightenment" is just untangling what you believe to be
true - your belief constructs. Just live life intuitively,
with no strategies for "awakening." Don't get trapped in
the mind, or try to figure out how to play the game.
"We", the "Beingness" that we are, just experiences
whatever is occurring without a framework of time,
or reference point, or concept...
It's just Life being - life!
It is Existence experiencing ItSelf as "me", or "you" -
as an occurrence within ItSelf...
Simply Living...
We, as waves of the Ocean of Existence, are continually
occurring - unfolding fluidly, seamlessly, reverberating
through the concept of time, and is what the wrinkle of
time happens in - the Timeless Ocean of Existence.
And so the realization seems to be that we simply
recognize Life living ItSelf as us...
...Simply Living
As we are...
Our Natural selves...
Now if I could only remember this... :)
_/\_
Mystic Meandering