U.G.Krishnamurti - No self

I discovered for myself and by myself 

that there is no self to realize — 

that's the realization I am talking about. 

It comes as a shattering blow. 

It hits you like a thunderbolt. 

You have invested everything in one basket, self-realization, 

and, in the end, suddenly you discover 

that there is no self to discover, no self to realize — 

and you say to yourself 

"What the hell have I been doing all my life?!" 

That blasts you.